Self love is the most important but hardest thing for us with BPD. Our view of self changes so rapidly. One minute I could feel awesome and the next I could feel like dying.
Don’t beat yourself up after an episode!
You are doing the best you can. If you aren’t then take the first step and go see a doctor. You don’t need anyone to tell you what you need to improve on because I’m sure you can become your worst nightmare. Therapy is like WordPress. You know what you want to say, promote or explain but you need someone to help you put it all together in a functioning way.
Having extreme anxiety feels like a shook up can of coke. It’s like waiting for someone to twist your top but if they do, you will spray and splash all of your dark insides all over them. They love you but not enough to wait for you to “cool” down.
To release the beast, I write poems on how I feel at the time. Here is a picture of it. Let me know your thoughts.
Stop looking around the room wondering “I wonder what’s up with them”. Everyone has their own story and if this is your first time at the psychiatrist office, yours is just beginning.
Keep working hard on yourself.
Going to the doctor is always a pain in the brain but you already got a hell of a lot of that so you good.
Here is a few suggestions I have to make things go smooth.
Research your symptoms
Keep in mind that you only have a certain amount of time to say what you have been dying to get out
They are just doctors, not gods
You can always get a second opinions
They are just there to help.
At the end of the session you will most likely feel the same, however, it is just one step in a long but most necessary process in getting your mental health back to where you would like it to be. 💘 you guys.